Clear Conscience

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Clear

Struggling through the years

Watching yourself live in constant fears ,

Emerging from the unwanted moat

Felt the gloat coming from the throat

 

A new chapter begun,

It is never-ending, you

can’t rid the shun

remnants of struggle backfired ,

battling the desires

 

Just one thing you aimed ,

Clear conscience to reclaim

Never wanting to be the part

of world game

How I wish the ‘overcame’

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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By 90vinitablog Posted in writing

Morning Diary

mumbai-localMorning : 7:50 am

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Train Route : Thane- Mulund-Nahur-Bhandup-kanjur-Vikhroli-Ghatkopar-VidyaVihar-Kurla-Sion-Matunga

The rest I don’t know as my destination is Matunga

Morning 7:47 am train was late ,so obviously 8;03 train too got late ….well that’s my everyday train .For the first time in whole year I had got a window seat in the morning time. But I flatly refused , as it is rainy day ….and u end up getting wet even though the windows are having shutter. I normally tend to stand because it gets difficult to get down once the train gets full. I was standing exactly in the middle . You tend to see the same faces everyday , if u catch the same train. One short heighted college going girl seemed lost . She was not able to understand whether she should stand besides me or not. At first I thought ,that she realised that she will get wet if she stands .

Rule No 1 : Never stand near the door on rainy days,…u get wet . But then I realised, she was short and not able to hold the upper handle …so she was hunting for a comfy place.

RULE NO 2 : Never stand in the entry of the sitting area. U will get crushed

And that’s what exactly happened.

Scene 2 :The girl was getting pushed inside . And then again she looked at me …I said stand where u were standing b4. …(she was having no option)

She asked me ” Is this first class , is it so crowded every time ?…I am travelling first time. I said “I realised that , and showed her the handle behind where her hand could reach out. Then I asked her , where do you want to get down ” and boom comes the answer “Ghatkopar” …..I said…it comes that side.

I absolutely could understand her state of mind and her state of first class imagination .

I told her go fast that side once the kanjur crowd gets down. She somehow managed.

Here goes the imagination of people who have never travelled by train and first  class   :  Small compartment ..with few people probably sitting and reading newspaper or novel, humming to music, busy carrying their own activity…(as shown in the movies) and very diligently getting down the compartment. Of course why not : u have paid 1000 bucks and got a first class  ticket :

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Actual Condition : So what you got a first class ticket ? ….standard of living has increased ,even I can have one…..colleges provide concession….anyone can have that . So it is worst than the first class . The compartments are small….and everyone ends up cramming inside.  U are able to breathe only till thane to mulund…then u are lost and sandwiched in the crowdcentral-railway-fast-local-8-am-in-morning

Scene 3 : Now comes the vidyavihar crowd. Normally they are…college goers , office crowd ppl etc. Two ladies who wanted to get down at  vidyavihar were sitting and then at vikhroli station they realised…the crowd is getting worst …better leave our seat now and start gearing up .

Now the problem here is that…at ghatkopar , how much crowd gets down …equally worse crowd  gets inside.  So now the 2 ladies got stuck. They were begging people standing near the rod to get down and get inside again …so that they could get down….but no use. They got stuck and missed their station.

Scene 4 : Now someone had to turn out a leader in such situation . One lady who got in at ghatkopar was getting pissed …so she made a formal announcement :  “We all are kurla crowd here….so whoever is standing near the rod….get down when the station comes and get inside again . I am telling you now only …you got one more chance to come inside…otherwise you will be crushed” . That lady actually said 12 3 : push ….Lol

THE LADIES IN THE FIRST CLASS Yell EACH TIME : PUSH PUSH …. they all are under going labour pain a the same time.

And that’s what happens at kurla…..All ladies unitedly  PUSH…The baby finally comes out ….ie (They get down) and equally new babies  grow inside the stomach.  Trust me KURLA Crowd is worst .

SCENE 5 : I got the advantage of being extremely thin. So voila comes my destination and I get down.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Voices

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Inner feelings crumble upon

Past always haunts for a long

There was never one

But

Experiences of others surrounds ton

 

A poke in the heart fills with romance

When I see a glance

The heart is already someone’s

So you go back being  lone

 

Head says

Be Strong-minded

As this is your ultimate motto

We all get lost sometimes

And that is absolutely fine

 

Heart says

Don’t Push hard

Loosen up the strings

Try trusting once

Who knows

You might get a new bunce

 

Peace Says

Cut open the chains

Come out of the shell

Forget the world

Which doesn’t cares

 

Never let anyone control your mind

You got one life

Be independent

Let that be on own terms

                                           ~~~VK

 

Something Happened

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All these years ,happy being alone

Never thought beyond my goal

cast of fear  grown inside

bottled emotions reside

 

camouflaged  are the feelings

as I am clueless about my senses

insecurities  piling on knees

 

unexpected love bumped upon

expected failures  getting carried on

Trying to fit in various crowd

Cloudy mind wavers around

 

Something Happened

I got no idea

OR

Something Happened

I ain’t accept the idea

 

I fell for someone

wrong place , wrong time , wrong person

I fell for someone

knowing it just lust

 

Wonder the reasons would have fathomed

if there ain’t exist the word lust 

Found and Lost

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Four letter word approached life
burst of emotions spread in my body
Always known for practicality
I botched up in first meet
realized too late

He liked my smile
I liked his flirtatious ways
He liked the way I am
I liked him for accepting I

BUT

Our perspectives differed
opinions opposite
Both strong headed
Both stubborn
It was heading nowhere

Love is blind I somewhere realized
Love is addictive I somewhere realized
Love is infectious I confess

Happy that we didn’t disguise

Glad that we were still in ‘like’ mode
By the time it was too late to explode

Found and lost fond too fast
No hard feelings for the cast .

 

 

 

 

 

Never Picked

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Beauty never matters  is easy to state

prejudices part of all thee .

The way you speak ,

The way you look ,

Comments ever fly’s

 

Why people are opined ?

it strikes a thought ,

The world is way happy without the shout .

 

Never Picked by love

Victimized me ,

Complaining me ,

 

Never Picked from me ,

Victimized you,

Complaining you ,

 

Soul is all that matters

Soul is what comes to rest

Soul is the one , constant under test …..

 

Beauty is just a word

Never pick as it is blurred …

 

 

 

The lone warrior: Breaking barriers between soldiers and civilians

Another inspiring article which i read in the newspaper and felt , it is more than worthy enough for the world to know about it . Its worth a read . 

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Kargil 2013: The guns have been quiet for more than a decade now; but there is one woman whose voice echoes through the Valley—Anuradha Prabhudesai. Rama Sreekant met 

“Thodi si mein wife hoon, thodi si mein nani hoon, lekin pehle Hindustani hoon,” says 57-year-old Anuradha Prabhudesai, an ex-banker, whose story dates back to August 2004 when she was holidaying in Ladakh with her husband and friends.

Anuradha was ambling along the roads of Drass, drinking in the friendliness of the locals and the soldiers in a war-ravaged town, when she first spotted an army caption that read, ‘I only regret that I have but one life to lay down for the country.’ Intrigued, she stopped an army Khansama to enquire what had happened there. He in turn, unassumingly asked, “aapko pata nahi, yahan toh haazerein laashein giri thi?” That was Anuradha’s moment of introspection.

She pondered about her comfortable life back in Mumbai, the brief news about Kargil (in 1999) and the pseudo-patriotism she wore in her heart. Moved by what she heard, Anuradha, along with her friend Vikram Joshi, took an oath at Vijay Stambh (War Memorial in Kargil) to bring to light the sacrifices made by the Kargil soldiers and to visit Kargil for the next five years.

Back from the trip, Anuradha wrote several letters to army officials seeking permission to visit them during Raksha Bandhan in 2005. After some initial resistance, Colonel Jha finally conceded. The mission was possible but the trail ahead tough.

Driving through rough roads from Manali to Sarchu and finally into Leh, all seemed worth it when, after tying rakhis and distributing homemade food, the soldiers expressed, “Aap jo pyaar dete ho rakhi ke zariye, woh hosla deta hai ladne ke liye.” The bond strengthened when she returned in 2006 with a group of 36 girls.

Mission Possible
Anuradha has visited Kargil 14 times in the last ten years, and her work has been cherished by the army. She has published more than 400 copies of Hindi poems authored by her and several booklets on the Kargil martyrs. “As Indians, we do not know the names of the Paramveer awardees of our country but we know the names of new-born kids of movie stars, film award winners, etc. Where are we heading as a nation?,” asks Anuradha, who is the only civilian and only woman with access to all the regiments in the

Kargil region.

Having lived up to her five-year oath, in 2009, when Anuradha expressed her uncertainty to continue the mission to Brigadier Pal, he simply ordered, “Continue the good work.”

Subsequently, Anuradha formed the Lakshya Foundation with an objective to instill a spirit of patriotism in the youth.

In her journey so far, she has travelled to Ladakh with 450 civilians giving them first-hand experience of army life, delivered 105 lectures across schools and arranged get-togethers of army wives and war widows. Fondly called ma’am, maasi and ma, by the soldiers, Anuradha’s role in their lives kept expanding. On 26th July 2011, she received a memento from Lt Gn Dastane for boosting the morale of the soldiers and bridging the gap between civilians and soldiers.

This memento, she says, is life’s best gift to her.

Giving Back
Anuradha’s work for the soldiers through the Lakshya foundation has grown multifold. Their first activity was ‘Diwali with Soldiers’—an initiative to distribute sweets to the families of the soldiers. “Aaj kal insaniyat ki kami hai. It’s all about me, my family, my job,” she says voicing her pain.

Sharing several anecdotes of the lives of soldiers, who stay put at an altitude of 18,000 ft in bone-chilling conditions for several weeks, Anuradha urges, “If you meet a soldier, give him respect and love. That’s all he needs.”

Taking a leaf from the lives of the soldiers, Anuradha has evolved as a human being—less temperamental, more disciplined, calm and collected, with a better sense of time.

She has reoriented her life to a different compass. Now, 26th July, Army Day, is incomplete without Anuradha and Lakshya Foundation. Leading two lives—one of a middle-class, hard-working wife and another of a woman who is a beacon of hope for our soldiers, in January 2012, Anuradha quit her job, “I wanted to work for my country,” she says.

Anuradha persists in her efforts to break the barriers between soldiers and civilians. She believes her mission will be accomplished when every Indian dedicates five years of his or her life to the country.  That would be a truly patriotic India.

 

Who Inspires You

90vinitablog:

After a very long time i found something really inspiring….Kudos to this article…A perfect blend and flow with thought provoking snippet …Thanks to countingducks for sharing such a beautiful post :)

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Recently I saw a brief clip of Stephen Hawkins on television : he communicates from his largely impassive face through imperceptible movements in his cheek which somehow translate into computer speech. Literally  he is an old man trapped in a wheel chair who can hardly smile and certainly cannot move a limb but he is rather more than that I suspect we might agree.

His is a powerful and original mind, but most of all he is a man of curiosity and a wonder which has transported him from the everyday, to look at things beyond his circumstances, and not within them. He still seems alive with an awe and insight, and even youth. Yes I’m sure he’d like to run and skip and dance as badly as I do, but his interest in the world around him, leaves him little time for a comparison of circumstances. It is easy to admire such…

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Two Minutes To Notice

90vinitablog:

Everyday in a hurry to catch the train , u miss those two minutes to notice . Each one should try and give up those minutes to people in need. My noticing has increased ,as each day I come across them but my minutes should also increase at times .

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In the midst of crowd , I was waiting for a friend
Watching the hustle , passing by like a wind
Clouds were crying , umbrellas were dashing
Still I stood , As I had an errand

Then I noticed a hand with a stick
Behind him was one more without it
Through the struggle , lost in the hurry
My empty hands gave them a sigh of relief

We juggled through the path ,
they muttered to the world
As all they wanted was , to be heard

Two minutes to notice , all it takes
You blessed with whole , what is at stake ??

 

 

 

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A Zillion Wants

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The feeling of Zillion wants rises again …the wish for more is endless

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Blooms of desires wreck everyday,

Scattered energies leaves it obscure

The best comes in attire,

Lost inside the acquire

Radial hands are moving fast,

Dreams are stuck inside the cask

A zillion ‘wants’ is a Pandora’s Box,

Yet you spread the wish of more. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A Tearful Sound

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Life is running smooth
Standing legs on local train ,
Commuters crowd at each station
I hum with my music play each day
The wind gushes makes me calm
Clinging to the rod , I observe my city
That day was like any other day
But
A stranger standing besides me
was sobbing silently .
At first I thought , she had a cold
The cold never stopped ,
I looked at the lady , she was expecting
At second I though , she had a hormonal outbreak
The hormones never stopped
Reluctant to the core , I never managed to ask her sufferings
The tearful sound still wonders a ‘why’ to my ear
I wish if she wouldn’t have mind my interfere……

 

 

Manipulators

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The minds of naive are transparent
public catching them are apparent

Lost are they in the jungle gym
fail to recognize the inner brim

Crowded are the manipulates,
easily can they stipulate

Hazed are the judgments
of gullible
heads are twirled by the
shrewder (s)

The trap is done
mock was a fun

You realize it later
Now clear with the traitor

Each time, appears the treachery
You become aware of the false
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ACHIEVEMENT

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A sense of failure in achievement , is my new start
The end is slowly drifting apart
The long wait bid goodbye to me
With a new wait approaching me
Hardships are part of life
Each feels there’s is a rife
A sense of failure in achievement , is my new start
Fading smile is slowly returning
I got to start the churning
self-assurance commences
slowly reckon the expenses
resolutions are meant to be broken
remember the amount of token
A sense of failure in achievement , is my new start
Prove yourself worthy
forget self-empathy
Now is the time to maketh the man
Yes u can , you can
A sense of failure in achievement, is my new start
sense of failure
failure in achievement
my new start
new start
(just) ..start

Somethings……..

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There are always Something’s in life which are best understood by ‘just yourself’ . Each one in life goes through a phase making them feel as ‘life turning into one hell’ . How complicated the situation is turning out can be just felt by you . You are surrounded by people who are giving you hope, willing to believe in you . People who are trying to make you understand to take a step , to make a rational decisions . But your mind tells ‘Its something’ which no one can understand’ . Its something which only my mind knows the complexity of the situation. Consolers are always ready with their sympathizer pill. Well known are roaming around in empathizer environment . Both parties are trying their best to get your mojo back . But the feeling of ‘something’ can’t be neglected . You fight to hold on , at the same time fight to let go . Humans always quote out of anger ‘just try to put yourself in my shoes’ . But even if they do so , the intensity cannot be equalized . You meet them half way through. As I am in my ‘Something phase ‘ , I would turn worse hypocrite if I tell ‘I never belong to the party of consolers and empathizers ‘ . All belong to the continuous turns of role play , Humans try to understand each other but end up knowing nothing about the others . Because it is that ‘Something’ which matters and will always matter .
This whole crap written above can be somewhat described in an optimistic way in the famous quote .

What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us.’

Wild Part

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Longing lingers around the year
face carries an invisible smear
Always breathed a simple life
Never complained of the only choice,
As some are blessed with no voice
A part of shyness blocked
A part of limit stopped
A part of me undetermined
Life unknowingly crawls

A murmur inside calls
Go live a life ,
forget the screams
The wild part steams
The wild part yearns
The wild part wishes
The part forever covets

 

 

Inspiring Article III

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Finally I caught another one.!!!!! . Usually I look for something unique and different in an inspiring article i want to share on the blog . This article in the newspaper, although a big one managed to caught my eye . The way editing of the article has been done is almost flawless and the sharp wisdom of Robert Steven Kaplan left me ponder a while. So my pondering I have always shared with the bloggers!!!!!! Hope you guys too enjoy it!!!!!….Again I don’t fail to mention. Its mere sharing and the views are not written by me . 

What Success Really Feels Like 

People have to take responsibility for managing their careers says Harvards Robert Steven Kaplan you cant be a bystander in your own life . 
As a vice-chairman-of-the-Goldman-Sachs- Group turned-Harvard-Business-School-professor,Robert Steven Kaplan often has graduating students dropping into his office for career advice.A typical case might go like this: the student applied for a high paying job in the financial services sector,but now that the offer has actually come though,hes not sure its what he wants.He feels guilty about his ambivalence since its a job everyone else covets and rejecting it seems selfish and self-indulgent.Maybe he should put his misgivings aside and do what his family and friends expect 
Many of us motor through our young adult years trying to rack up one achievement after another being successful, says Kaplan,who has recently authored a book titled What Youre Really Meant to Do: a road map for reaching your unique potential.I advise students to beware of conventional wisdom and focus on the difficult task of understanding who they are and where their interests lie.You cant be a bystander in your own life.Managing your career is 100% your responsibility. 
The problem is not limited to b-school campuses.Kaplan narrates numerous cases of accomplished individuals who find they no longer enjoy what they are doing.They dont feel successful,though everyone around them thinks they are, says Kaplan.In mid-career executives it manifests itself in a feeling of confusion about where to turn and a concern that they have painted themselves into a corner.In older executives and professionals,its sometimes reflected in feelings of bitterness and regret. 
Whatever stage in their careers they may be at,Kaplan advises his readers to go through a process of heightening their self-awareness.The first step here is to assess ones strengths and weakness,not in terms of vague character traits,but in terms of skills.These might include skills in written communication,presentation,quanitative analysis,negoatiation,interpersonal skills and ability to confront others constructively.The importance of these skills varies according to the job and the level of responsibility,so this analysis is an ongoing process.
A skills mismatch is one of the common reasons people find themselves unhappy in a job to which they have been promoted.In some cases,it is the reason they are not promoted.Kaplan advises everyone to make a habit out of introspecting on their skills so they may pro-actively manage their capabilities.This doesnt mean trying to develop a skill you are inherently weak at.On the contrary,it might be best managed by delegating that part of the job to someone who is truly good at it.
Kaplan presents an example from the financial sector,where a junior executive had excellent market knowledge and client skills,but lacked the quanitative skills required for financial modeling,an important part of stock picking.She was set to quit her job when her seniors suggested she might be able to offset her weakness by teaming up with others on her client teams.She stayed on and moved up to more senior positions where her job required less modeling and ultimately emerged as one of the top professionals in her firm.This is a lesson I learned in my own career: the capabilities of my assembled team needed to fit with my own skills and deficiencies, says Kaplan.
Another step to self awareness is to identify your passions.What Youre Really Meant To Do suggests exercises like thinking back to a time when you were at your best or asking yourself questions like If I had enough money to do whatever I wanted,what career would I pursue.Some people may not want to get into this territory,fearing it might lead them to do something drastic,but Kaplan says getting in touch with your passions is critical to reaching your potential : You dont need to immediately decide what action to take or assess whether your dream is realistic.But when youre aware of what youre looking for,it becomes easier to recognise opportunities. 
Before you start looking for opportunities to reach your potential,Kaplan recommends you pause and go through one more step: understanding why you behave as you do.The best way to begin is to write down your life story,starting chronologically with where you were born,describing your family,your growing years,key events.Most people carry two different narratives of their lives with them a success narrative they tell others,where they are the heroes overcoming the odds and a failure narrative which they never share,which is full of angst and self-doubt.The exercise of writing down both narratives will take time but it will help you recognize patterns in your behaviour.The effort is hard work but it can pay big dividends, says Kaplan.Sometimes we know what we should do but cant bring ourselves to do it.We need to understand the internal impediments that are keeping us from taking certain actions.

Here,Kaplan narrates the case of a restaurant operator who he met at the owner-president course at Harvard.The man had started with a mid-priced Italian restaurant and had later expanded these to multiple locations.Now he was sick of the business and was considering selling.A longish conversation revealed that he came from a family of successful corporate executives and his dominant father had never approved of him becoming a chef.His passion was creating new dishes and serving customers but he had built a chain with a large number of employees because this measured up to his fathers idea of success.Now he was spending most of his time scouting locations and tying up finance for new projects,which he hated.As a result of this discussion,he realised he needed to drop the baggage he had been carrying to please others.He got back to what he enjoyed, says Kaplan.
Understanding what you really want is important,but in order to get it,you need to engage with the world outside.For one thing,it is essential to communicate your dreams to those who might help get you there,which,in an organisational set-up,is your boss.
Some people hesitate to communicate upward thinking it to be too political,but this mind-set can be self-defeating,says Kaplan: You may believe your boss or other senior people know you well enough to understand how your skills fit with your passions,but the truth is,they usually dont.They expect you to take responsibility for communicating to them what you want. 
For those whose dream job happens to be a leadership position,Kaplans advice is: be willing to act like a leader.This means speaking up for your convictions,judging your actions through the prism of whether it is good for the organisation,helping others without regard to whats in it for you,giving credit to others and doing the job with the next-job-up in mind.All of these are risky and many would find it hard to sustain this type of attitude over a career,but Kaplan believes those who demonstrate courage by questioning authority and speaking up stand a greater chance of advancing to greater roles in their organisations: You have to play the game with some degree of abandon.When the stakes get high,people become unduly hesitant or fearful.As a leader,you have to be relaxed and authentic and able to assert yourself. 
Lastly,and most importantly,you need to cultivate relationships try as you may,you cant do it alone.In the Facebook era,relationships may seem easy to develop,but being connected is not the same as having people you can draw on in times of need.In my experience,one of the biggest impediments to reaching your full potential is isolation.Its not lack of skills or bad luck that sets you back it is that you become isolated and loose perspective.You stop seeing yourself objectively and make poor decisions, says Kaplan.
Kaplan is the person a lot of people go to for help in a time of crisis and he,ironically,ends up advising them to communicate with individuals who are closer to their situation people they should have spoken to much before.Why didnt they reach out sooner There are lots of reasons they give, says Kaplan.They dont want to bother anyone.They didnt have a person they trusted or respected enough to confide in.They feared the person would no longer respect them.But the truth is,when you approach someone for help,most of them would try their best to be helpful. 
 
Robert Steven Kaplan 

Red Herrings

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Silent shouts suddenly bumps

two-minute happiness thumps

Thought came a new day

but again heard some delay

The wait is impulsively irresistible

left feeling nothing achievable

Eyes are wet in disguise

Voice mumbling the reprise

All the red herrings applied

I again chair the reside