Obscure Conundrum

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Thorny as on rose stem,
prickling my mind,

Morning breaths perplexed
Blemished night thoughts

Vigor in dire need
Thee seem in dire straits

It’s not a phase
It’s not a phase

Voices beware

Deep are these conundrums
Deeper the obscure

Hiatus your happiness
Interim thee rejoice

Fear is the ‘Lock’
Courage thy ‘Key’
Clarity thy ‘answer’

purpose thee seek
Truth thee seek

Only

Deep are these conundrums
Deeper the obscure

~VK

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Speaking Eyes

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She fell of the rung . He came running through the doors .  Her ankle was hurt , minor injury though .  He could not bear her suffering . She looked through his eyes ,  the same pain and suffering  she was going through for past 10 years . The separation had been traumatising .  They had moved on in life but that  moment took them 10 years back.

“Honey, I have told you so many times not to use this ladder , its broken “. Throwing the ladder away he lifted her in his arms . He put her on sofa , softly caressing  her ankle  and asked ,”Is the pain bad ? , she said.” No , it doesn’t seem to be, but it’s paining severely “. He ran for the first aid kit , and started  applying cream . Unable to bear the pain , she twitched his  biceps . He tried to divert her attention by kissing her on the forehead  ,playing with her hair , hugging her . Slowly he took his hands running down her body and gave a twist to the ankles . She shouted and pushed him apart.

Shouting she said, ” It hurts , don’t press it too hard ” , lost in his thoughts he came back to senses and asked , “May I know where is the first aid kit kept ? 

Morning Diary

mumbai-localMorning : 7:50 am

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Train Route : Thane- Mulund-Nahur-Bhandup-kanjur-Vikhroli-Ghatkopar-VidyaVihar-Kurla-Sion-Matunga

The rest I don’t know as my destination is Matunga

Morning 7:47 am train was late ,so obviously 8;03 train too got late ….well that’s my everyday train .For the first time in whole year I had got a window seat in the morning time. But I flatly refused , as it is rainy day ….and u end up getting wet even though the windows are having shutter. I normally tend to stand because it gets difficult to get down once the train gets full. I was standing exactly in the middle . You tend to see the same faces everyday , if u catch the same train. One short heighted college going girl seemed lost . She was not able to understand whether she should stand besides me or not. At first I thought ,that she realised that she will get wet if she stands .

Rule No 1 : Never stand near the door on rainy days,…u get wet . But then I realised, she was short and not able to hold the upper handle …so she was hunting for a comfy place.

RULE NO 2 : Never stand in the entry of the sitting area. U will get crushed

And that’s what exactly happened.

Scene 2 :The girl was getting pushed inside . And then again she looked at me …I said stand where u were standing b4. …(she was having no option)

She asked me ” Is this first class , is it so crowded every time ?…I am travelling first time. I said “I realised that , and showed her the handle behind where her hand could reach out. Then I asked her , where do you want to get down ” and boom comes the answer “Ghatkopar” …..I said…it comes that side.

I absolutely could understand her state of mind and her state of first class imagination .

I told her go fast that side once the kanjur crowd gets down. She somehow managed.

Here goes the imagination of people who have never travelled by train and first  class   :  Small compartment ..with few people probably sitting and reading newspaper or novel, humming to music, busy carrying their own activity…(as shown in the movies) and very diligently getting down the compartment. Of course why not : u have paid 1000 bucks and got a first class  ticket :

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Actual Condition : So what you got a first class ticket ? ….standard of living has increased ,even I can have one…..colleges provide concession….anyone can have that . So it is worst than the first class . The compartments are small….and everyone ends up cramming inside.  U are able to breathe only till thane to mulund…then u are lost and sandwiched in the crowdcentral-railway-fast-local-8-am-in-morning

Scene 3 : Now comes the vidyavihar crowd. Normally they are…college goers , office crowd ppl etc. Two ladies who wanted to get down at  vidyavihar were sitting and then at vikhroli station they realised…the crowd is getting worst …better leave our seat now and start gearing up .

Now the problem here is that…at ghatkopar , how much crowd gets down …equally worse crowd  gets inside.  So now the 2 ladies got stuck. They were begging people standing near the rod to get down and get inside again …so that they could get down….but no use. They got stuck and missed their station.

Scene 4 : Now someone had to turn out a leader in such situation . One lady who got in at ghatkopar was getting pissed …so she made a formal announcement :  “We all are kurla crowd here….so whoever is standing near the rod….get down when the station comes and get inside again . I am telling you now only …you got one more chance to come inside…otherwise you will be crushed” . That lady actually said 12 3 : push ….Lol

THE LADIES IN THE FIRST CLASS Yell EACH TIME : PUSH PUSH …. they all are under going labour pain a the same time.

And that’s what happens at kurla…..All ladies unitedly  PUSH…The baby finally comes out ….ie (They get down) and equally new babies  grow inside the stomach.  Trust me KURLA Crowd is worst .

SCENE 5 : I got the advantage of being extremely thin. So voila comes my destination and I get down.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Manipulators

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The minds of naive are transparent
public catching them are apparent

Lost are they in the jungle gym
fail to recognize the inner brim

Crowded are the manipulates,
easily can they stipulate

Hazed are the judgments
of gullible
heads are twirled by the
shrewder (s)

The trap is done
mock was a fun

You realize it later
Now clear with the traitor

Each time, appears the treachery
You become aware of the false
sensory .

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Somethings……..

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There are always Something’s in life which are best understood by ‘just yourself’ . Each one in life goes through a phase making them feel as ‘life turning into one hell’ . How complicated the situation is turning out can be just felt by you . You are surrounded by people who are giving you hope, willing to believe in you . People who are trying to make you understand to take a step , to make a rational decisions . But your mind tells ‘Its something’ which no one can understand’ . Its something which only my mind knows the complexity of the situation. Consolers are always ready with their sympathizer pill. Well known are roaming around in empathizer environment . Both parties are trying their best to get your mojo back . But the feeling of ‘something’ can’t be neglected . You fight to hold on , at the same time fight to let go . Humans always quote out of anger ‘just try to put yourself in my shoes’ . But even if they do so , the intensity cannot be equalized . You meet them half way through. As I am in my ‘Something phase ‘ , I would turn worse hypocrite if I tell ‘I never belong to the party of consolers and empathizers ‘ . All belong to the continuous turns of role play , Humans try to understand each other but end up knowing nothing about the others . Because it is that ‘Something’ which matters and will always matter .
This whole crap written above can be somewhat described in an optimistic way in the famous quote .

What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us.’

Wild Part

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Longing lingers around the year
face carries an invisible smear
Always breathed a simple life
Never complained of the only choice,
As some are blessed with no voice
A part of shyness blocked
A part of limit stopped
A part of me undetermined
Life unknowingly crawls

A murmur inside calls
Go live a life ,
forget the screams
The wild part steams
The wild part yearns
The wild part wishes
The part forever covets

 

 

Inspiring Article III

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Finally I caught another one.!!!!! . Usually I look for something unique and different in an inspiring article i want to share on the blog . This article in the newspaper, although a big one managed to caught my eye . The way editing of the article has been done is almost flawless and the sharp wisdom of Robert Steven Kaplan left me ponder a while. So my pondering I have always shared with the bloggers!!!!!! Hope you guys too enjoy it!!!!!….Again I don’t fail to mention. Its mere sharing and the views are not written by me . 

What Success Really Feels Like 

People have to take responsibility for managing their careers says Harvards Robert Steven Kaplan you cant be a bystander in your own life . 
As a vice-chairman-of-the-Goldman-Sachs- Group turned-Harvard-Business-School-professor,Robert Steven Kaplan often has graduating students dropping into his office for career advice.A typical case might go like this: the student applied for a high paying job in the financial services sector,but now that the offer has actually come though,hes not sure its what he wants.He feels guilty about his ambivalence since its a job everyone else covets and rejecting it seems selfish and self-indulgent.Maybe he should put his misgivings aside and do what his family and friends expect 
Many of us motor through our young adult years trying to rack up one achievement after another being successful, says Kaplan,who has recently authored a book titled What Youre Really Meant to Do: a road map for reaching your unique potential.I advise students to beware of conventional wisdom and focus on the difficult task of understanding who they are and where their interests lie.You cant be a bystander in your own life.Managing your career is 100% your responsibility. 
The problem is not limited to b-school campuses.Kaplan narrates numerous cases of accomplished individuals who find they no longer enjoy what they are doing.They dont feel successful,though everyone around them thinks they are, says Kaplan.In mid-career executives it manifests itself in a feeling of confusion about where to turn and a concern that they have painted themselves into a corner.In older executives and professionals,its sometimes reflected in feelings of bitterness and regret. 
Whatever stage in their careers they may be at,Kaplan advises his readers to go through a process of heightening their self-awareness.The first step here is to assess ones strengths and weakness,not in terms of vague character traits,but in terms of skills.These might include skills in written communication,presentation,quanitative analysis,negoatiation,interpersonal skills and ability to confront others constructively.The importance of these skills varies according to the job and the level of responsibility,so this analysis is an ongoing process.
A skills mismatch is one of the common reasons people find themselves unhappy in a job to which they have been promoted.In some cases,it is the reason they are not promoted.Kaplan advises everyone to make a habit out of introspecting on their skills so they may pro-actively manage their capabilities.This doesnt mean trying to develop a skill you are inherently weak at.On the contrary,it might be best managed by delegating that part of the job to someone who is truly good at it.
Kaplan presents an example from the financial sector,where a junior executive had excellent market knowledge and client skills,but lacked the quanitative skills required for financial modeling,an important part of stock picking.She was set to quit her job when her seniors suggested she might be able to offset her weakness by teaming up with others on her client teams.She stayed on and moved up to more senior positions where her job required less modeling and ultimately emerged as one of the top professionals in her firm.This is a lesson I learned in my own career: the capabilities of my assembled team needed to fit with my own skills and deficiencies, says Kaplan.
Another step to self awareness is to identify your passions.What Youre Really Meant To Do suggests exercises like thinking back to a time when you were at your best or asking yourself questions like If I had enough money to do whatever I wanted,what career would I pursue.Some people may not want to get into this territory,fearing it might lead them to do something drastic,but Kaplan says getting in touch with your passions is critical to reaching your potential : You dont need to immediately decide what action to take or assess whether your dream is realistic.But when youre aware of what youre looking for,it becomes easier to recognise opportunities. 
Before you start looking for opportunities to reach your potential,Kaplan recommends you pause and go through one more step: understanding why you behave as you do.The best way to begin is to write down your life story,starting chronologically with where you were born,describing your family,your growing years,key events.Most people carry two different narratives of their lives with them a success narrative they tell others,where they are the heroes overcoming the odds and a failure narrative which they never share,which is full of angst and self-doubt.The exercise of writing down both narratives will take time but it will help you recognize patterns in your behaviour.The effort is hard work but it can pay big dividends, says Kaplan.Sometimes we know what we should do but cant bring ourselves to do it.We need to understand the internal impediments that are keeping us from taking certain actions.

Here,Kaplan narrates the case of a restaurant operator who he met at the owner-president course at Harvard.The man had started with a mid-priced Italian restaurant and had later expanded these to multiple locations.Now he was sick of the business and was considering selling.A longish conversation revealed that he came from a family of successful corporate executives and his dominant father had never approved of him becoming a chef.His passion was creating new dishes and serving customers but he had built a chain with a large number of employees because this measured up to his fathers idea of success.Now he was spending most of his time scouting locations and tying up finance for new projects,which he hated.As a result of this discussion,he realised he needed to drop the baggage he had been carrying to please others.He got back to what he enjoyed, says Kaplan.
Understanding what you really want is important,but in order to get it,you need to engage with the world outside.For one thing,it is essential to communicate your dreams to those who might help get you there,which,in an organisational set-up,is your boss.
Some people hesitate to communicate upward thinking it to be too political,but this mind-set can be self-defeating,says Kaplan: You may believe your boss or other senior people know you well enough to understand how your skills fit with your passions,but the truth is,they usually dont.They expect you to take responsibility for communicating to them what you want. 
For those whose dream job happens to be a leadership position,Kaplans advice is: be willing to act like a leader.This means speaking up for your convictions,judging your actions through the prism of whether it is good for the organisation,helping others without regard to whats in it for you,giving credit to others and doing the job with the next-job-up in mind.All of these are risky and many would find it hard to sustain this type of attitude over a career,but Kaplan believes those who demonstrate courage by questioning authority and speaking up stand a greater chance of advancing to greater roles in their organisations: You have to play the game with some degree of abandon.When the stakes get high,people become unduly hesitant or fearful.As a leader,you have to be relaxed and authentic and able to assert yourself. 
Lastly,and most importantly,you need to cultivate relationships try as you may,you cant do it alone.In the Facebook era,relationships may seem easy to develop,but being connected is not the same as having people you can draw on in times of need.In my experience,one of the biggest impediments to reaching your full potential is isolation.Its not lack of skills or bad luck that sets you back it is that you become isolated and loose perspective.You stop seeing yourself objectively and make poor decisions, says Kaplan.
Kaplan is the person a lot of people go to for help in a time of crisis and he,ironically,ends up advising them to communicate with individuals who are closer to their situation people they should have spoken to much before.Why didnt they reach out sooner There are lots of reasons they give, says Kaplan.They dont want to bother anyone.They didnt have a person they trusted or respected enough to confide in.They feared the person would no longer respect them.But the truth is,when you approach someone for help,most of them would try their best to be helpful. 
 
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Red Herrings

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Silent shouts suddenly bumps

two-minute happiness thumps

Thought came a new day

but again heard some delay

The wait is impulsively irresistible

left feeling nothing achievable

Eyes are wet in disguise

Voice mumbling the reprise

All the red herrings applied

I again chair the reside

 

A Song

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A song got stuck to my head ,

chill through the veins felt inside my body ,

hearing myself hum the lyrics

Tune whispering in my ears

I found solace in music

Such is the power of few voice

longing a deep caprice

I fell in love with my moody melancholy .

A song got stuck to my head

heart sensed an unbound thread

 

Versions Of Life

LIFE

Life is a bummer
Toasted in the name of rummer
At times in moribund ,
mourning of conundrum ,
seem humdrum

Life is a game ,
It is never ever the same
Each time you want to earn a score ,
end up losing life few more
greed of power arouses the splurge
The life-points are purged

Life is a brouhaha
attacking back as piranha
ticking by a torpedo
dressed in a tuxedo

Life is a gospel
We cause a dispel
inside creates repel
unsealed by a scalpel

Everything written up
is a crap ..It is
Nothing but a four
letter word….(LIFE)
Root, a three letter word…(BIO)
Two-letter word ….(BE)
Never reduce to
one letter- word ..(I)
Raise the toast for Carpe Diem!!!

 

 

Selfish Me

Selfish Me

You nurture dependency , yet yearn constant independency

You fear losing the close ones , yet want to break -free your path tons

You debate the modern views , yet can’t neglect the conservative views

You believe in the spiritual path yet want to have materialistic math

You want to get everything , but are left with nothing 

The feeling is unbeatable , emotions unstable

Your worries seem endless , you hide the suppress

The selfish me is intertwined , leaving I undermined

 

 

Trust is All I give , Trust is What I need

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Gloomy  days are passing by ,

which crept like a shadow

Haunted in the dreamy nights

numbing my first light

 

beacon of hope came to rescue ,

bloggers around the world as hue

 

Branching out in virtual life,

gave me strength

Made few bonds in length

 

Doubts cripples us is never

have I denied

Open with the confide

 

Trust is life’s difficult task

It is what I ever ask

 

As Trust is All I can give

Trust is what I need …

 

Clear Conscience

Clear

Struggling through the years

Watching yourself live in constant fears ,

Emerging from the unwanted moat

Felt the gloat coming from the throat

 

A new chapter begun,

It is never-ending, you

can’t rid the shun

remnants of struggle backfired ,

battling the desires

 

Just one thing you aimed ,

Clear conscience to reclaim

Never wanting to be the part

of world game

How I wish the ‘overcame’

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Everyone Deserves An Award !!!!!!!!!!….

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Thank you Mrs Deepa and Juned. I realised today that both lovely blogger have chosen me for the similar awards Actually this is the last award I would be accepting . Because it leaves me in great dilemma to choose among bloggers…each day I might come through a new blog….Each one is just trying to express rather than compete..to share their views,opinions and thoughts. But writing ABC was fun…So I am sharing this one last blog post related to Award….I could have rejected this…But when someone has taken the courtesy to go through the pains to nominate one , I don’t know how to deny it. So I hope bloggers around the world understand me . I am truly sorry if I have missed anyone. So the nominations for all the bloggers around the world

Please visit everyone’s blogs . Till date i have come across these beautiful bloggers and many more to come 

So Screw with the rules of nominations …(no offense)…But each one who I follow is nominated and henceforth everyone just feel great about themselves to have initiated the blog. Thank You!!!!!!

As it was fun writing ABC rules  : write a word about myself for each of the English alphabets. So here it goes 

A- Ambivert,Addictive,Arrogant
B-Bloggers, Benedict Cumberbatch
C- Curious ,Castle….(The TV show truly rocks)
D-Dexter,Deepa (my mom’s name and also the name of the person who nominated me
E-Erratic , Entrepreneur…(well I hope to become one day)
F-Fanatic , Friends , F.R.I.E.N.D.S
G-Game Of Thrones,Graphology
H-Hedonistic
I-Italian
J-Justice….I mean..can’t bear injustice happening around the world
K-Kate Beckett ,
L-Lasagne , Lifehouse..(one of my favourite bands)
M-Mischevious, Milkshake
N-Naughty , Newspaper…(I want it everymorning…like old people)
O-open-minded
P-Pasta ,Pooh!!! ( I have collections of pooh)
Q-quotes…I love it man!!!!!
R-Roller-Coaster….(Life is one hell like that)
S- Sherlock , sarcastic ,straightforward , Starbucks , Short-tempered…(S is really endless for me)
T-talkative ,Tea(I cant live without it)
U-Ubiquitious…
V-Vinita
W-Wanderer
X- XIII
Y-yolk
Z-Zeal

Actually I was feeling very hungry while typing this ,so many food related stuff which I like has occurred (lol). 
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A Zillion Wants

Blooms of desires wreck everyday,

Scattered energies leaves it obscure

The best comes in attire,

Lost inside the acquire

Radial hands are moving fast,

Dreams are stuck inside the cask

A zillion ‘wants’ is a Pandora’s Box,

Yet you spread the wish of more. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Heart Sinking

 

I named this post as heart sinking because  this is how I felt while passing by my car . I wish I had a bike to get a speedy errand feel . For me my connection to nature especially during rains are so intense, that my clicking never stops. For me to capture the moment is important rather than how the photo(graphy) has turned out . As at the end sometimes , you just want that feel to still linger in your minds . The feel you experience when have a mouth-watering food in front of you. That’s how I feel for nature. These pics by far has turned out to be best for me . The combination of a bit sunlight,too much mist and green covered mountains , I bet it looks the best in India …God’s Creation indeed!!!!